I don't feel like being a mom today.
Not because I have anything better to do, but just because I don't feel like it. Does anyone else ever feel like that? I'd just like to be alone, maybe go to the Library and spend an hour deciding what I want to read this week without once wishing the ground would open up and swallow me to save me from the shame of my child alternately screaming, arching his back to escape his stroller, and pulling every book he can get his hands on off the shelf. Or, I'd like to go to the mall and spend a whole check on things I don't need, silly things, like underwear and shoes and handbags.
Alas, I am a mom. Every. Single. Day. And every night, too. It's the best thing that ever happened to me, don't get me wrong (well, except for the corporate re-structure of body fat which took place during my pregnancy... that
I could really have done without).
I think one of the hardest things about being a mom is how your job is never, ever done. Sure, the kid has to sleep sometime, but that is when you are able to get housework done, make phone calls, shower, and do whatever else it is you need to do. There's just not much me
Is it incredibly selfish for someone fortunate enough to stay at home with their child to want "me time?" I suspect my husband would think so. He would say that if I wanted "me time", I was more than welcome to get a job and spend lots of time away from Hatchling. That's not what I want, of course. I'd just like a break, sometimes.
Women, it sure is hard to keep us happy! The good news is, I still haven't had any sugar or caffeine, and I don't even think I'm crabby. My husband might argue this point, but then what does he really know anyway? =)